No.1548
the collar stays on,
because YOU had me beg for it,
walked in said,
"you're no dog I'm no owner, quit acting it",
if not so, why accept the plea,
when I was on my knees,
bark back "I want to be one, but only you can own me",
explain, the "reluctant" sigh, right before you muttered,
"alright, fine"? is that so,
not an owner, unless I,
desperately beg for it?
how cruel, how lovely,
this game we keep on playing.
No.1551
dude what
No.1552
senses so sharp breaths hollow
skin it's electric the movements frantic
days thirty two identity lost not enough
another eternity, keep, keep devouring me,
identity lost the new purpose you've, reconstructed,
broke me down then said,
"my rhythm, you adopt it, do it now I do not repeat"
no hesitation, on my knees,
you already knew, the rhythm it—
was already ingrained, you didn't demand the power
you commanded it I, thought I was submitting
you knew I already did it was just an exercise,
pavlovian built in you just had me emphasize,
everyday colors you made them so vibrant,
haunting the love songs now, you they remind me, no—
not the songs the colors, every feeling,
every single sensation, so sharp it's electric,
you said "belong to me" you already owned it,
the high so good not enough,
another eternity keep, keep devouring me
No.1566
feel weight, bleed uncut, whatever,
a wall, a display, yours truly,
paint, what you want, we hang it,
money too, we'll pay it,
a wall, a display? mine truly...
mine sure, in dark, quiet,
trained for years,
a wall, a display, I earned it,
fuck you, fuck me for it too,
a wall, a display, not enough,
keep the bills, I'll keep bleeding the pieces,
recognition, hungry, not good, not enough,
this once, I'll starve the demons,
a wall, a display, not enough,
pay me in history, lest I break it.
No.1572
gaze the sparks, relentless
nonetheless I still hold them,
still bare handed still clawing still,
burning, I saw you,
gaze shot the sparks
mid air I fucking caught them,
I didn't know what got hold of me
I just felt unwavering,
looked at you,
felt like a photon endlessly arriving
at it's final destination,
photon, a blind vision,
I didn't walk here I was just
pre-destined